Up and Down

I wasn't planning on writing for a very long time because I want to keep personal things personal. These past couple of weeks has been crazy, and I find that alot did happen and continues to happen with some people I know.

I do thank God for my life right this minute, regardless of what the circumstances around me are. All through undergrad, I fought with certain emotions,thoughts and circumstances about certain people and certain issues that I shouldn't have. Partly because those people did not give care about me or what was important to me. Some people capitalize on situations for their personal gain. I did that at different times this past year. I've seen people take advantage of people, and I hate to see people used and misused. I'm happy that I am able to recognize all this now and prevent it from happening to anyone I know.

So I have decided to get out of this cycle. I apologise if this sounds very personal, but I have to remain strong and focus on all the positive love and vibe I get from friends around me.
This past thanksgiving was great. I got the chance to spend some time with my two youger brothers who came up from MI. We all chilled at my sister's house in S. MD and had a blessed time with family and friends. Even though I had alot of things in my mind, I tried to make the most of this past weekend.
But the crazy thing is that I had one my my greatest fears confirmed bythe beginning of this week. Right now, I have a bunch of emotions running through my head and heart. But that is that. It hurts to be hurt by someone you hurt not so long ago.It even hurts more to be hurt almost the exact same way you hurt that person, intentionally or not.

But I thank God that school is great, and I am yet looking forward to the winter break. I just want things, every part of my life to be working out.I want the peace and stability I had this time last year back.

But I've come to see that things are always working out, we either fail to realise it or are blinded by our circumstance to recognize God moving, on our behalf and for our good.

Have a blessed week everyone (Whoever is reading this). I would like to take the opportunity to say a Happy Birthday to the Best sister anyone could ever pray for. She is a year older today and definately wiser. Happy Birthday Sis.