Me....venting

This past week was CRAZY, to say the least. In that one week, I felt pain and loss like I'd never before. This awakened me to the sad fact that some day, each and everyone of us will loose those things we sometimes overlook, but hold dearest to our hearts.
But My God was good, and I am thankful to be where I am today. But even today, I am filled with different conflicting emotions and feelings that make me search for that one person that fits ALL my criterias, just so that I can pour out these feelings and thoughts to. I think about the Ultimate One, but somehow, I feel I need someone "closer by". How weird is that???

For the past few months, I've been wrestling with my needs/wants, what I believe I am entitled to and how I don't seem to be getting the respect I deserve and work for. The funny thing is that this has to do with those closest to me, and not the crazy co-worker or annoying boss. Why can't I get that "thank you" and "I'm sorry you're right" when it's most needed??? Why, Lord, do I have to be the one to take all the unnecessary crap just because of the position you have put me in? Why can't people learn? Why? Why? Why?????

God has been faithful so far, and He continues to show me that He is still in the midst of everything I consider to be "crap" that occurs daily. But what am I not doing? Why should I have to put up with this for a day longer? Why should I keep serving so much when I feel my work load should be cut in half?

Lord,I am so frustrated, tired and upset with myself because this isn't me and my heart isn't glad with all I do.How long will I have to care when they seem to have other important issues on their plate??? I just want to run away and be free from all this.

New Beginnings in a new year.

As usual, I'm back from one of my many long vacations away from blogging. It's a brand NEW YEAR, which I believe holds alot more possibilities and grace than last year. So this year, I promise to try harder...in everything. Promising to quit one bad habit after another, as is expected by all when a New year begins, could be a receipe for disaster. I have found this to be true. Like a crystal meth or heroin addict trying to go "cold turkey" as a means to break a deadly addiction, it is better to take it one day at a time.

So I will make no huge promises with regards to the frequency at which I will/should be blogging. But I did have a wonderful Christmas celebration and a blessed New Year's eve. Here are some pics.


(Please ignore my feet :-D)


My handsome cousin whom we recently located somewhere in GA (along with his two older sisters and older brother).. It's a bizzare story but the bottome line is that God is good.