Up and Down

I wasn't planning on writing for a very long time because I want to keep personal things personal. These past couple of weeks has been crazy, and I find that alot did happen and continues to happen with some people I know.

I do thank God for my life right this minute, regardless of what the circumstances around me are. All through undergrad, I fought with certain emotions,thoughts and circumstances about certain people and certain issues that I shouldn't have. Partly because those people did not give care about me or what was important to me. Some people capitalize on situations for their personal gain. I did that at different times this past year. I've seen people take advantage of people, and I hate to see people used and misused. I'm happy that I am able to recognize all this now and prevent it from happening to anyone I know.

So I have decided to get out of this cycle. I apologise if this sounds very personal, but I have to remain strong and focus on all the positive love and vibe I get from friends around me.
This past thanksgiving was great. I got the chance to spend some time with my two youger brothers who came up from MI. We all chilled at my sister's house in S. MD and had a blessed time with family and friends. Even though I had alot of things in my mind, I tried to make the most of this past weekend.
But the crazy thing is that I had one my my greatest fears confirmed bythe beginning of this week. Right now, I have a bunch of emotions running through my head and heart. But that is that. It hurts to be hurt by someone you hurt not so long ago.It even hurts more to be hurt almost the exact same way you hurt that person, intentionally or not.

But I thank God that school is great, and I am yet looking forward to the winter break. I just want things, every part of my life to be working out.I want the peace and stability I had this time last year back.

But I've come to see that things are always working out, we either fail to realise it or are blinded by our circumstance to recognize God moving, on our behalf and for our good.

Have a blessed week everyone (Whoever is reading this). I would like to take the opportunity to say a Happy Birthday to the Best sister anyone could ever pray for. She is a year older today and definately wiser. Happy Birthday Sis.

Today started off ok. I sometimes have to remind myself that this is just an online journal, one I can use to express myself(but there's a limit) and one I can use to let people know what is basically going on in my life. I have to work on the 'basic' part (lol).

So this is a tough...very tough time in my life. ALOT is going on,with finals soon approaching and the semester/year coming to an end. Thank God for the Thanksgiving break coming up. I hope to get certain questions answered because sometimes you find yourself moving in a very, very slow pace in one area of your life, that kind of puts a dent in all the other areas.(I find myself in the 'reflection zone' already, even thought we haven't entered the month of December. Scary...but trully interesting).

I can never thanks God enough for my blessings that come in the form of family and friends. I have to know how to work these blessings and use them as much as I can. I thank God for my immediate family that just want to remain there for me to know that everything will be ok, and for friends who I can call up once in a while to just vent, and regardless of my history with them, they always take the time to listen and also give real good advice.

School is good so far, I'm just praying to God to do really good in my accounting class that seems to be kickin my butt. All the other's are interesting and not too difficult. I'm hoping for some days and ways I can move around in this city and just loosen up a little, and breathe. By saying this, I don't mean I need to be free from certain things, but it just means I need to hope again, and believe that all things are still possible, despite my past mess ups. You know???

I bet that's a great feeling. I will spend some time in my next entry or two talking about my co-workers and their different but yet interesting characters.

I have to go to classs. It starts in 30 minutes. Man I will be in class from 5.30pm to 11pm...is that crazy or what???

Definately an AWESOME weekend.

I need to put up some pics in order to to bore you the reader, and me sometimes.)


Let me start of by answering the question that was posted on my last entry. People did not believe the gala show was the MAIN reason for my wanting to go to Lansing. They believed it had to do with a certain gentleman that has been a huge part of my life these past couple of years. I don't know if I should name any names, as I never know who might be reading this. But there were a couple of reasons that I went to Lansing...all personal though.
I was blessed enough to make it to and from Michigan safely. It really was a weekend that will never be forgotten. There was alot of screeming, laughing, crying, talking...... need I go on???? I felt it all within this past three days and four nights. But there were moments that will forever be cherished, and that was the level of honesty and openess I had to be on in order to do what needed to be done.


The show was good, food ok...ok because my friends and I reacted to it. But African food is great overall. My brothers are looking and doing good, thank God. I was happy to see some familiar faces.So yes, I am back to Baltimore and can't wait to settle down.

Ohhhhhh....I got the John Legend CD.

Nice Weekend coming.

So it's been almost a week since I wrote something down. But I just wanted to say.....to all my loyal fans out there.....thnk you. Knowing that you read my blog day after day after day, and you sip inspiration from my words, keeps me going. I love you and God bless America.



(Just moi trying to look serious)



Ok...seriously. This week (and last) was crazy for me, but I did have a lot of blessed moments. I found some days filled with confusion and uncertainties, and others with bountiful blessings and God just making a way when I couldn't see any way out. Life is beautiful and just....full for surprises.

Work is great. School....same 'ol same 'ol. I have an exam in two days, and immediately after.....I will be planning my trip to LANSING, MI!!!!! I can't wait. I will have sooooo much fun.....it's not going to make any sense. Sike!!!! But I can't wait to get to Lansing. I miss the Michigan air, and just being a graduate student in the midst of all those crazy, young students. Men I wish UB was larger. But I can't wait to see my brothers and hear of their crazy stories. I can't wait to attend the cultural show, which is the reason I planned this trip in the first place...but everyone who knows me knows that the MAIN reason for this trip doesn't involve a bunch of African students being creative on stage :-p

Well to keep this short.....I know this coming weekend will be a memorable one...regardless of what happens. But God knows....there's gonna be alotta bum shaking!!!!!!!!!