Now I really don't know who I am writing this for or who would be reading it. But I do feel the need to say something, even if it's just to remind myself of this day and time.

The easiest thing that comes to mind is that I am crazy EXCITED that my boys in Miami worn the championship last night. God knows I would have really cried if they hadn't (even though none of these people know I exist in any way, shape or form).
I am happy for them.
The next is the sad fact that I lost something that had been dear to me for many years now. I lost a part of myself, because of my insecurities and fear....I lost a part of me. But surprisingly, I did not find my below drenched with tears the next morning, or my mind scared to death wondering what next. I was ok. I am ok. The devil could sit here and try to make me think of who I lost it to, how I lost it, and how I need to continue fighting to hold on to something that isn't really mine to fight for....but as we all know...THE DEVIL IS (SUCH) A LIAR!!!!

So I need to pray more, hope more, and most of all, remember ( T....really remember) that anything I've lost wasn't for me anyways, and I deserve much, much more than pain, rejection, anger, resentment and the works. I would hate to be consumed by all those negatives, as I have been since the year began.

Hopefully, I will be able to spot "wrongness" from a distance and go the other direction. Stay blessed everyone.

It's been a nice day so far, and I thank God I can't really complain about life so far.

Random comment: My brother just informed me that he has begun his own blog, and he was inspired by moi (of course) and Miss L. I think that's rather swell.

Now back to my entry. I am in the middle of doing some school work, but have been having some problems focusing. There's the music I'm listening to right now, my e-mail and other random sites (The Facebook..hint..hint)...I'm a lost case.
But I'm feeling good right now and would like to document it for the first time in a short while. I've been catching up with a couple of my friends on some stuff that's going on with them, and it's been good. Just how I think it should be. But what is currently rocking my boat??? What do I think about when that whack commercial comes on in the middle of my show in the evening??? What's the next step or move? Blah. Blah...Blah...just BLAH!!!! Now if this is not the feeling of utter "blahness"....I don't know what is :-D